Question

+ Do U know why I love U so very much?

- I don't care what are your reasons as long as you love me sincerely.

Kenyataan dan impian

Kalaulah semua kenyataan seindah impian
Tentulah tiada keluhan rintihan
Namun demikian hakikat kehidupan
Sentiasa diduga oleh cabaran
Maka aku yang bernama insan
Harus menghimpun segenap ketabahan

Saidinia Umar

“No amount of guilt can change the past & no amount of worrying can change the future. Go easy on yourself, for the outcome of all affairs is determined by Allah's decree. If something is meant to go elsewhere, it will never come your way, but if it is yours by destiny, from you it cannot flee.”

[Umar Ibn al-Khattab (may Allah be pleased with him)]

akulah itu

akulah itu yang berpagi2

menapak ke medan rezeki

menunai yang terkanun di tugasan hakiki

menegur yang terbabas di batasan budi

menasihat yang tergelincir dari landasan pekerti

akulah itu yg saban hari

berusaha melangsai budi

mereka yang terlebih dulu di sini

menyampai ilmu membentuk peribadi

akulah itu yang saban detik memohon pada Illahi

agar diberi ketabahan hati

mendepani cabaran tak kenal henti.

(hakcipta terpelihara: FazilahDahman)

Rembang

Rembang petang
Mentari berlalu ke ufuk barat
Dari balik jendela kaca
Aku mengukur bebayang
Terlarik hiba di layar sepi
Tatkala hati mencari-cari
Yang jauh dan yang hilang...

Menghitung Menafsir

Syaaban di pertengahan.Julai kian menghujung.Aku masih di sini.Menghitung segenap rahmat Allah yg kukutip saban waktu.Menafsir sejuta hikmah dari setiap dugaanNya.Apa lagi yg kupunya, melainkan keyakinan bahawa apapun yg kulalui,DIA lebih tahu segala.(15Syaaban nan barakah/17Julai)

Mid July

Mid July.

I have been on hiatus for a fortnight. I went to Bintulu from the 4th till the 8th. Gained some new experience. Some bitter ones, some sweet ones and some unexpected ones too. The best was surely when I helped the facilitators to be the MC at one of their programs. And not to forget when many people were surprised to know that I am going to be 49 in November. And I must say that I thank Allah for this. It has always been a real blessing when people say I look younger than my age. For whatever reason, I am always myself; the way I am.

There wasn't much time to see every part of Bintulu. It was quite disappointing that the Science camp that was scheduled at a hotel ended in a hostel.(They must have spelt the word HOSTEL in the first place but forgot to put the 'S'.) But at least there was lodging for us teachers though quite uncomfortable. My sincere thanks to the Principal, staff and students of SMK Kemena. The organizer even forgot to schedule a few hours for the students to visit Bintulu town and buy some souvenirs, though they are not cheap at any rate!! Imagine to come from every state in Malaysia for the first time to this part of Sarawak and not even had the chance to buy one pathetic key chain for friends at home. My oh my....

When I came back I was appointed the MC for National Robotics Competition Melaka State level. Two days consecutively had to drive to Politeknik Merlimau. The weather was fiery hot in the afternoons and I was down with fever and flu on Thursday but still went to work. On Friday the fever got worse and I ended up being given 2 days MC by the doctor. Well, the MC got an MC!!

Due to the MC, 2 classes were without English lessons on Friday. InsyaAllah I will replace during their prep hours next week. Well, they should not be happy for too long without this firm English teacher with the sharpest tongue!

Sometimes I am so exhausted with all sort of tasks/duties besides teaching. Albeit that, I am not the kind of person who refuse any duties and responsibilities. The only setback is that I am not as healthy as I look or as I portray!!

How I really wish I have another income so that I can take an unpaid leave for one year and enjoy my life- go to Alabama to visit my youngest daughter/go on a vacation to wherever I wish/write the book that I dream of for so long/drive along the coast to watch the sunset.....But then again, as this teaching job is the only income I have, I am determined to give my very best. Anybody wants me as their business partner or something?? Well, the only business I know is TEACHING and handle ceremonies and events as Master of Ceremony.

Today I will make a difference.

I will begin by controlling my thoughts. A person is the product of his thoughts. I want to be happy and hopeful. Therefore, I will have thoughts that are happy and hopeful. I refuse to be victimized by my circumstances. I will not let petty inconveniences such as stoplights, long lines, and traffic jams be my masters. I will avoid negativism and gossip. Optimism will be my companion, and victory will be my hallmark. Today I will make a difference.

I will be grateful for the twenty-four hours that are before me. Time is a precious commodity. I refuse to allow what little time I have to be contaminated by self-pity, anxiety, or boredom. I will face this day with the joy of a child and the courage of a giant. I will drink each minute as though it is my last. When tomorrow comes, today will be gone forever. While it is here, I will use it for loving and giving. Today I will make a difference.

I will not let past failures haunt me. Even though my life is scarred with mistakes, I refuse to rummage through my trash heap of failures. I will admit them. I will correct them. I will press on. Victoriously. No failure is fatal. It's OK to stumble...I will get up. It's OK to fail...I will rise again. Today I will make a difference.

I will spend time with those I love. My spouse, my children, my family. A man can own the world but be poor for the lack of love. A man can own nothing and yet be wealthy in relationships. Today I will spend at least five minutes with the significant people in my world. Five quality minutes of talking or hugging or thanking or listening. Five undiluted minutes with my mate, children, and friends.

Today I will make a difference.

Max Lucado

From "On The Anvil"

TQVM to my Dear friend who gave this to me with the hope I will make a difference in my life as an individual.

words on LOVE

1. This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy. --Susan Polis Schutz (in The Artist Who Paints Disappearing Rain Forests)

2. Only when we give joyfully, without hesitation or thought of gain, can we truly know what love means. --Leo Buscaglia (in Finding A Lifeline & A Friend) 3. Love is a force more formidable than any other. It is invisible, it cannot be seen or measured, yet it is powerful enough to transform you in a moment, and offer you more joy than any material possession could. --Barbara DeAngelis (in Selling 1 House to Serve 30 Villages) 4.For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it. --Ivan Panin (in Turning Everest's Trash Into Treasure) 5.I will love the light for it shows me the way. Yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars. --Og Mandino (in Lighting Up the World with LED) 6.Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If youlove what you are doing, you will be successful. --Albert Schweitzer (in Bhutan) 7.The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them. --Thomas Merton (in Love's Beginning) 8.Life without love is like a tree without blossom and fruit. --Kahlil Gibran(in Gorillas of Saharan Africa) 9.You are what you love, not what loves you. --Adaptation (in What You Love) 10.Wisdom tells me I am nothing. Love tells me I am everything. And between the two my life flows. --Nisargadatta Maharaj (in Untitled)